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<title>Nearly Left Today</title>
<link>http://www.keithwatanabe.net/blogs/2004/2/17/fbbb1df0645dc5c5c32f848d341e8e01.html</link>
<description><![CDATA[Got extremely fed up with work.  Can't stand it when people nag me.  Hate micromanagement.  Walked out before lunch to get a breather.  Manager came to talk to me.  Fortunately, secondary manager wasn't around (was ill in the morning).  

Been hungry but nothing really appeals to me lately.  Think it's depression/stress.  Heard big MD will be leaving.  Decided that when/if he quit, I would too since no other people on top are trustworthy.  Might've added more stress to me than necessary.

Looking at other companies.  Don't want to work for another big company but will do so if money is good.  Need it for stability and to save some cash.  Got called by recruiter today.  Ironic how times are?  Hopefully new job pans out with more pay.  

Will see doctor Thursday.  Praying that skin problem is allergy/Tokyo related and nothing serious.  Sucks that they don't accept Japanese insurance.  Seems fishy.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 17 Feb 2004 23:35:29 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>People bug me</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Developers acting dumber than ever.  Got stupid request from developer but he didn't know which servers he really wanted.  Can't test all commands on request because there's 264!!!  Idiot.  SAs also stupid.  Servers have old packages.  Should update.  Why don't they?

Company tech department going down shitter fast.  Poor developers working with shitty standards.  Bet some pointy haired manager wants their standards in place just for an ego rub and for the company to have bragging rights.  Just ridiculous on a company of this scale.  Shitigroup should give us more headcount and money for tech as el leader mentioned.]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 19 Feb 2004 23:49:31 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Lower value</title>
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<description><![CDATA[After work we had a few drinks at the "new" pub downstairs in Harumi Triton.  Guys were pretty pissed (what else is new).  Gavin is far too obsessed with work.  He can't stop thinking about the company.

Right now, supposedly word on the street is that Nikko Citigroup pays shit and is shit.  Not a good rep.  So people might seem a bit desperate which would drive the value of a Nikko Citigroup employee down during the bargaining process.  It could be Gavin's super paranoia, but he's pretty accurate when it comes to this stuff.

Other thing is that another MD left.  Equities research MD.  Not sure what they'll rebuild the company with.  I'm pretty sure that unless you have some comfy job or unless you absolutely suck, you won't stay here.

Got a call by Morgan Stanley.  We'll see how that goes.  Hope their standards aren't too impossible in terms of all around technical skills.  I've done everything I could to a point to improve myself technically.  Obviously, got lots to work on, but still these companies can't get perfection.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 21 Feb 2004 12:39:09 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Kill Bill</title>
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<description><![CDATA[The Big Man left today.  I was endorsed with the task of essentially terminating the person who gave me the opportunity to reside in Japan and provided me with a paycheck for two years, every month.  A very odd sensation.  This is the second time i've had to terminate my own boss.

The passing of Bill and many MDs reminds me of Return of the King where Lord Denethor, in his madness, runs out of the castle and commits suicide in a fiery heap.  In the Return of the King, the statement I saw was that Denethor as this stewart who held power in Gondor represented the old ways while his son, Faramir, and Aragorn would be able to ascend and regrow the world of men.  In my company's case, the idea is to get the people at the bottom and make room to push them further towards the top.

There's a certain luxury when this happens.  In these cases, people move up faster because opportunities clear for the young who are groomed to one day handle these responsibilities.  I've had a few interesting conversations just within the other night in terms of my own ground in the company.  For me, people's ears are starting to perk up when they hear my name.  You become visible and if you can run with the ball, I think people truly will notice you.  I'm hoping that despite my insanity and certain reputation, that people do notice my efforts.  I feel it's a compliment to me when people are relying on me to do things.  I might be Pushover Smurf, but everyone needs their Pushover Smurf.  Need is good.

As far as the party was concerned, what a blast!  Probably two of the most interesting times of the night was when our Security Officer (GISO) suddenly spots our Infrastructure Director, points, and shouts out, "I used to fuck people like that in prison!"  Then he realizes that a bunch of us (especially some women!) were observing keenly.  What a great guy!  And of course the same Director going about with everyone in the most typical Japanese Salariman Drunken manner that makes you glad now and then to be in Japan (if you've never experienced what it's like to be in Japan with a Drunken Japanese Salariman, you haven't lived life!)

The down point was me almost losing my keitai.  John, probably the most reliable person in the company and my alias for Yoda, told me, "Only a moron like Keith would lose his keitai with his house key and a Mickey Mouse chain on it!"  Fortunately, our Operations IT director kept it.  Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on how you look at it), she was hugging me (in typical baba japanese female way) and telling me, "I saved your life!  But I have big plans for you in development for operations!"  I'm like, "uh, this could be interesting....or incredibly dangerous!"

Regardless, nights like those when you get to be with people like that are unforgetable.  

Thanks Bill for all the memories!  If it wasn't for you and Joe and the gang, I wouldn't have any great memories in living in Japan!]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 13 Mar 2004 02:29:08 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Marking Days I Am Threatened</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I receive a fair number of threats and today had received strangulation from my coworker.  I will continue to note every activity where my coworkers continue to abuse me so I can make a case for a lawsuit against my company.  I am sick of the political games and will play my own game of a formal lawsuit against the company for mental damages and harassment in the workplace if this continues.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 06 Apr 2004 22:48:35 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Professionalism At Work</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Well, I came back home after finding out my father (seemingly) had a stroke.  The guys at the office were very understanding and unbelievably, I was able to get out in about three days (after some hectic situations of sorting out plane details, etc.)  My coworkers were really great about everything, even helping me find a cheap ticket.

At the moment, I'm still deciding what to do about my career.  On the one hand, I am getting a little tired of Japan.  However, I still haven't become fluent in Japanese and I have several more goals to hit before returning to the states.  Still, the stress is getting unbearable and I don't know how much longer *I* can survive with all the mess going on.  Guess time will tell.  Hopefully, nothing bad will happen any longer.  This year has been a mess so far.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 14 Apr 2004 02:27:14 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>When to quit?</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I'm asking myself this question increasingly every day.  Even if it pays the bills and with my need for having a job, I still find myself with a growing urge just to give up.  More people quit the company the other and one of the big, middle managers is hanging it up and moving out.  While audit is probably the growing reason why people are becoming dysfunctional and perturbed, I really just think it's the company's lack of organization and it's oblivious stance against its employees that's slowly disintegrating us internally.

I thought it was rather callous that my manager took me to the side the other day and got angry for taking a day off after being jetlagged.  Any human with a brain should recognize that a person on the other side of the world ain't gonna be functioning normally once they return after two weeks.  And two weeks of stress on top of that!  They call themselves a "service organization."  How about a self-servicing parasite?

I'm still cautious that other companies would have similar problems, but just the fact that I have so little control at this point pisses me off.  I hate being the cog-in-the-machine.  I'd prefer being the broken cog that tears down the machine and watch the whole thing blow up while people escape to the mountains.

But it's clearer than ever that I need to be my own boss.  Some people are good at following orders.  I thought I was but I end up getting disgruntled with pisshead managers who are useless social infectants that need to be shot to the sun.

More than that I think I should move away from Japan.  Definitely this company though as I've been receiving these hostile stares that make me feel uncomfortable.  I rarely get invited to lunch except by a few friends and fewer come to talk with me.  I'm one of the most friendly people at work but I feel utterly uneasy in this environment.]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 29 Apr 2004 11:09:22 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Need Real Time Off</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I need some real time off from work and people for a while.  One where I'm economically independent and can just focus on my own projects.  I'm growing increasingly restless with my inability to complete things in my life and to really take control the way I feel fit.  

It's turning out that the banking industry is an abhorrent piece of social infrastructure for me.  You'd think that such an institution which earns huge bucks would provide enough time for people to enjoy.  Instead, banks are the opposite of altruism; they're essentially leeches in life that suck every penny from everything to serve their own purpose.

If I could save a fair amount of capital up, I'd quit and live off my savings a bit while accomplishing my real goals: studying Japanese, building some websites and working on my writing.  I feel so utterly defeated at work that getting fired would be considered a blessing (if they gave me a decent package).  I just feel I can't move on with my normal life until I get my main projects completed.]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 13 May 2004 06:41:45 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Slow Week</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Right now things at work are a bit slow.  I'm actually glad though.  Seems like a lot of people are going.  Two really nice people left yesterday....but it wasn't because of company problems.  Instead, they're having kids!

But still tons of transfers or people hitting new roads.  On the positive front, people at work aren't talking about head count or firing anymore.  So the worst seems to be over.

Some of the bigwigs from NY came down.  Don't know what they wanted but nothing big so far.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 15 May 2004 09:49:49 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Being Crazy</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I think in order to work for a securities company you require one of two traits: 1) greed; 2) insanity.  If you have both, you'll probably be really successful, but at the end you'll probably land yourself in jail, with a big lawsuit, or in some sewer hacked up.  Actually, I think for my company at least, people have a high prerequisite of being insane.  Don't know why.  I don't know much about other securities companies except that it's quite political.  But at my company at least, the people have personalities.  I've heard some people at Morgan Stanley are as interesting as sucking on salt (well, supposedly they hire all these "theory" people from MIT, etc.  no wonder!)

They should have on the application forms for my office a little check box that describes one as having a certain type of mental condition, then putting a disclaimer at the bottom saying that we hire anyone (with the knowledge that as long as they check this box, we'll give them a higher potential to work there).]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 15 May 2004 09:57:21 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Projects Coming Due</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Been horribly busy lately because of our projects.  Don't really get much help from that many people on this stuff either so I'm like a one man army.  But then again that's how I always handle things.  Hope to get some real time off.  Thinking about flying home in July to see how my folks are handling.  Having heard much in the last few days.  That might be a good sign.  Hope my father is doing good.

Supposedly, my group will get more people.  Can't wait.  Need more support.  Next person should be a guy.  Japanese girls just aren't tenacious enough.  That's not a bigot statement but just fact.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 22 May 2004 23:56:40 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Insanity</title>
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<description><![CDATA[The insanity has gotten worse.  I can't even handle critical requests because of the amount of work I receive.  And I get yelled at by incredibly selfish people who don't understand technology and processes.  My coworker got scrutinized by some baba in IBD.  If that person said the same to me, I would legitimately lay the smacketh down on the bitch!

Starting to feel doubts about getting any rewards at the end.  Most likely what will end up happening is that we have another "rotten financial year" because of the massive settlement Citigroup did with the WorldCom investors (idiots) and then justify that for yet another salary freeze.  

The best description for my situation at work is Mifune in Matrix Revolutions where he's trying to fight off all those sentinals and just gettig overwhelmed.  Afterwards, he's all scarred up like hamburger.  That's exactly how I feel.

Some guys at work haven't seen this movie yet so I said instead that I'm also like Hudson in Aliens where he's trying to blow away all those aliens.  Eventually, he gets overwhelmed.  But if you add the fact that Hudson is paranoid and ready to combust, that also describes me.  It'd be great if those managers give us a friggin' break for once.  It's bad enough I have to come on the weekend (btw, for all you foreigners who enjoy 9-5 hours; don't come here!!!!)]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 27 May 2004 23:33:02 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>What a Nightmare Today</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Someone came back from vacation and I was pestered non-stop today.  Could barely do my own work.  Too many phone calls.  Wanted to hit the gym but couldn't even make it because of horseshit.  At least I have a few good friends in the company.]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 31 May 2004 22:25:40 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Yet Another One Leaves</title>
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<description><![CDATA[We had a farewell party as our coworker Ayako had her last day in the office yesterday.  A good lunch in Tsukiji with free beer and sushi along with a total of 14 people.  Then the night topped it off at Hobgoblins in Akasaka with even Bill Chute and a few TLUGgers making it in attendance.  Quite a good night excellent for my usual laconic disposition after those nights and a slightly disturbed throat.

At the same time, we're getting an engineer from the US who's an expert on NIS+.  Some people initially felt skeptical considering that the guys in the US have shown dubious skills at best when presenting their "software".  However, this guy is the real deal.  Heck, he was learning on a punch card when he took CS as a major up.  He even knew Kernigan & Ritchie from Bell Labs when they were doing B.  Pretty impressive and someone who seems genuinely interested in the technological aspects as opposed to frivolously spending corporate dollars for their toy environment.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 19 Jun 2004 10:24:29 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>IT Certifications</title>
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<description><![CDATA[We've got a bunch of these guys from India in my company who supposedly hold all these certifications doing our engineering work....however, the ironic part is that they can't do a damn lick of work by themselves.  Kinda sad when you see a bunch of people get overpaid based on their credentials.  I've known guys who built kick ass games that didn't even have degrees or guys who designed parsers that the world now uses.  Then we have these jokers who somehow get more money than the rest of us by having a piece of paper.  What a joke.  I've worked my ass off for years reading every single book and learning each of the areas in IT until I was able to build a confident amount of knowledge to handle almost all the main fields.  Yet I'm severely underpaid compared to these boneheads.  I don't have anything personal against Indians nor those who hold certifications, but when I see these guys getting shitloads of money while my family suffers from financial problems, it really pisses me off.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 19 Jun 2004 15:26:53 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Brutal Day</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Went to lunch with Shoko today.  Was very pleasant since I avoided talking about work for once.  She's one of the few people I can hang out with at the company and NOT talk about work.  Before and after that it was just non-stop problems.  I think people just try to come up with dumb questions to make me want to quit the job.  Can't even do critical requests because so many people bug me non-stop.  The worst requests come from equities.  They usually are large, with little explaination, no planning and no thinking.  You'd expect that people working on such critical systems would plan better.  I think the word planning is non-existent in my coworkers dictionary the way these guys handle projects.

There's some position for a software architect that opened up.  It was really interesting and something I would love to do.  However, the way it'll probably end up is that you walk around with a spreadsheet and tell people that their system is non-compliant.  But it's the only real interesting position open right now.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 22 Jun 2004 23:26:06 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>The Big Man Has Joined Us</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Well, physically he's big.  But my bud at work has joined my group adding some muscle (figuratively and literally) to our group.  Should be interesting since it'll help reduce our overall work.  Should be interesting when I get back.  Hopefully, we get another NT SA soon since it's Windows is such a vast area.  One day I hope to become sane again :)]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 02 Jul 2004 22:47:14 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>It's official</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I handed in my resignation letter today.  In many ways it was hard since I felt I worked really hard this year and will be giving up on many good friends and opportunities in Japan.  On the other hand, I swear to god it's like when Frodo got his finger bitten off by Gollum at the end of Return of the King.  Frodo was growing mad with each passing day as the possession of the Ring took hold of his soul to the point where he can see the Eye of Sauron without closing his own eyes.

For me the Ring of Power is my position as someone with root access on many boxes.  However, I'm surrounded by spies sent from Isengard (Log Reviewers) to check my work.  So I'm in a double bind.  I have to deal with the groping, childish demeanor of developers and business people while fending off the bureaucratic institution that goes along with my position, now increased ten fold with these people.

These log reviewers are not bad PEOPLE.  It reminds me a lot of what my Macro Economics professor had once said about the CBEST test (a test used for allowing people to qualify as teachers in the LAUSD).  he said, "Now don't me wrong.   These people aren't bad people at all, but if you can't pass the CBEST test, you have to be dumber than a tree!"  one of the lasting quotes that has stuck with me to this day.  Heck, one woman has been gracious enough to give us candy on occasion, but as with my typical cynical nature, I inquired, "Is that a bribe?"

Anyway, the madness of possessing the technical power of root is just too much for a Ring Bearer to handle.  But hopefully unlike Frodo, the quest won't claim my life, but instead end up like Bilbo Baggins who "lived happily until the end of his days."  ]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 03 Aug 2004 02:13:12 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>The Silliness of Bureaucracy</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Without even an official approval from my main manager, we got this note for more bureaucracy to do work.  It's like the most cynical Dilbert cartoon out there.  For me the humor (or more poignantly pathetic spot) is that basically to do work you have fill in a million forms.  And even when you fill in those forms, you have to fill in a few million more.  Unending bureaucracy.  

Part of all this is due to "audit" concerns.  It's a major buzzword that sounds more like a Jewish practice for torture than something that helps gain a company business (or retain employees).  I found more humor when my coworker john mentioned that after our town hall meeting (which I missed due to being on late shift) how we expected to increase our workload times by 30% in focusing the issues on audit alone.  

Some of the places to focus the blame is the FSA, who are mimicking the US' counterparts (SEC) in terms of hunting security companies for malpractices.  Funny thing about these so-called auditors is that they don't seem like they know much, at least from a technical viewpoint.  But if the FSA gives any insight into how Japan does its business, then you might as well realize how fucked Japan is since they're locked in bureaucracy, preventing themselves from growing.

A friend of mine mentioned this about how large companies face these problems.  In my view, it's probably securities but more so at my place due to us having an asylum rather than a group of competent people in charge.  And when I say competent I don't mean that they're dumb because many are certainly sneaky and often play the politician role than a true technical manager.

But it scares the shit out of me when we get this goofball manager type just pushes their weight (which should be associated with higher level managers).  I mean, I imagine these bongheads get double a normal technician's pay and all they do is just bark at people to do their work, which they can't perform because they truly have no skills.

In the past, when I worked at the dot coms, most of my senior managers had a clue and experience.  But they were technical and understood the technology and projects fairly well.  Not everyone of course, but considering how many generals we have compared to soldiers on the front side, that's not saying much.

But this whole escapade in some ways comforts me since it helps convince me that going back and working for a smaller, less bureaucratic company is the right way to go.  The only thing these larger companies have is money for which they can throw around to outsource more talented agencies.  At my place, I think the long term event is going to be the whole technology side who aren't specialist to be bought out by IBM.  And then the fat will be trimmed (which hopefully means all those useless middle managers).]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 07 Aug 2004 02:12:14 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Down to the wire</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Well, I basically have another two weeks to go.  In some ways, it's like going for a root canal.  There's a lot of waiting where I'm just trying to get by my last ten business days in the office.  I think a lot of people are frustrated with me because I'm at a point where I'm looking FAR beyond the company.  I'm trying to become as useless as possible, but I know too much which is actually a penalty for me; people tend to use those with knowledge like a dictionary.

Still though, there's something that just drives me nuts whenever I step into the office.  It's like you know something is broken or that 20 new problems have sprung up, even when it's not your time to work.  Shit like that always happens and there's really nothing you can do about it.

On an interesting note, we got a replacement for the Big Man.  Some guy from another bank.  The interesting part is that he has a Phd in Philosophy from UC Berkeley.  Although people have been arguing with me that this guy is probably the typical run-of-the-mill types, I know, on the other hand, the quality of people that UCB produces.  I used to go there and I knew the calibre of people who were accepted.  It's not easy and whether or not this guy is a heavy duty techie is irrelevant to me.  The thing is that he's obviously highly intelligent.  His resume looks impressive and he seems well rounded enough to take the bill.

The question is how has the industry changed him if possible?  The average person at Berkeley must be nuts.  Just like at my company.  But the difference is that the average person at Berkeley is also supremely intelligent, typically the top 2% in the country and the world.  Besides that, UCB is one of the most liberal, if not THE MOST liberal, universities in the world.  People are on average politically motivated.  And if they weren't before, their views and behavior changes after attending that environment.

Of course, one must ask what type of person was he then and if his philosophy had changed since that point.  I think when you get a Phd you get drilled so hard that your beliefs become solidified to a point.  Of course, there's always room for growth, but your main values remain constant.  So is this guy some overzealous religious evangelist?  Or is he some (former) potsmoking hippy hanging out at Telegraph?

Hard to say about this.  But one thing is for sure: I want to meet him before I leave.  I sincerely hope he takes care of the (good) people at my company.  Regardless, I doubt people are going to be able to blow smoke up his ass.]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 30 Aug 2004 03:16:26 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>One more week!</title>
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<description><![CDATA[This is the week.  The final five days before my 2 1/2 years voyage at Nikko Citigroup comes to an end.  I'm honestly NOT going to miss the environment nor the location (except for my favorite Starbucks shop in the world), but I will miss many people.  I think the difference between my last days and other people's last days is that I'm going to be completely gone from the company and the country.  Others would quit and seek another securities job or fly to another part of citigroup in the world.  But for me, it really will be the end before returning home and renewing my life there.

However as I mentioned to other people, my foreign friends are always welcome to Los Angeles.  My home definitely is there home as I will attempt to extend my hospitality and gratitude for their friendship and give them a positive impression of LA.  I've taken a lot of shit for being American and an equal amount for living in LA.  While I understand the good and negative aspects of America, people can sometimes be a bit too negative in their criticisms without giving us a chance to demonstrate our positive values.

Interestingly enough though, it seems that outside of Miho, there will be another person soon making their appearance in LA.  One of the log reviewers will have a trip down there so it looks like I get to play host for more than one person ;)  Well, as long as it's interesting I hope things will be fun!]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 06 Sep 2004 01:49:25 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[Just some quotes I'm taking from my favorite movies to describe my adventures and life in Japan:

Hudson: That's it man, game over man, game over, man! Game over! - Aliens

Frost: What the hell are we supposed to use man? Harsh language? - Aliens

Bilbo: I'm old, Gandalf. I know I don't look it but I'm beginning to feel it in my heart. I feel thin... sort of stretched, like butter scraped over too much bread. I need a holiday. A very long holiday. And I don't expect I shall return. In fact I mean not to. - Lord of the Rings

Bilbo: I don't know half of you half as well as I should like, and I like less than half of you half as well as you deserve. - Lord of the Rings

Frodo: I wish the ring had never come to me. I wish none of this had happened.
Gandalf: So do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us. -  Lord of the Rings

Frodo: What are we holding on to Sam?
Sam : That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo... and it's worth fighting for." - The Two Towers.

Frodo : [continue walking] You left out one of the chief characters - Samwise the Brave. I want to hear more about Sam.
[Frodo stops and turns to Sam]
Frodo : Frodo wouldn't got far without Sam.
Sam : Now Mr. Frodo, you shouldn't make fun; I was being serious.
Frodo : So was I. - The Two Towers

Gollum : You don't have any friends. Nobody likes you. - The Two Towers

Gandalf : Farewell... my brave Hobbits. My work is now finished. Here at last, on the shores of the sea... comes the end of our Fellowship. I'll not say, "Do not weep"... not all tears are an evil. - Return of the King

Elrond : I give hope to men.
Aragorn : I keep none for myself. - Return of the King

Gimli : Never thought I'd die fighting side by side with an Elf.
Legolas : What about side by side with a friend?
Gimli : Aye. I could do that. - Return of the King

Aragorn : My friends, you bow to no one.  - Return of the King

Frodo : [voiceover] How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on... when in your heart... you begin to understand... there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend. Some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold. - Return of the King

Sam : Well, I'm back. - Return of the King

Han Solo : Don't everyone thank me at once. - Star Wars

Obi-Wan : The Force will be with you, always. - Star Wars

Princess Leia : I love you.
Han Solo : I know. - The Empire Strikes Back

Peter Parker : Who am I? You sure you want to know? The story of my life is not for the faint of heart. If somebody said it was a happy little tale... if somebody told you I was just your average ordinary guy, not a care in the world... somebody lied. - Spider-Man

Spider-Man : Can I get you a drink.
Mary Jane Watson : I'm with John, he'll get me my drink.
Spider-Man : John...
Mary Jane Watson : By the way, John has seen my show 5 times. Harry has seen it twice. Aunt May has seen it. My sick mother got out of bed to see it. Even my father, he came backstage to borrow cash. But my best friend who cares so much about me, can't make 8 o'clock curtain. After all these years, he's nothing to me but an empty seat. - Spider-Man 2

Spider-Man : [backs away] No Uncle Ben. I'm just Peter Parker. I'm Spider-Man no more. No more... - Spider-Man 2

Holden - I mean, I don't think I'm alone in the world in imagining this flick may be the worst idea since Greedo shooting first. - Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back

Kenny : Goodbye, you guys. - South Park: Bigger, Longer and Uncut]]></description>
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<title>No Job Still</title>
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<description><![CDATA[If there ever was a lesson that I learned (or a few) it's that you never quit a job without having a backup plan.  Meaning you  have guaranteed money coming in no matter what the circumstance.  

The next thing is that you don't let anyone talk you into believing that the market is better, especially a recruiter.  Recruiters have a habit of preying on one's fears; they know all these strategies of trying to screw you and your employer over just in the chance of them getting a percentage.  They have no risk by getting you to quit your job or skip out for a job interview, but you risk everything each time this happens.  Instead, they actually can win because of referral bonuses.  Worse yet, you can't strangle or sue a recruiter if something crappy happens.  It's a shame because these critters have caused enough problems for employers and employees alike with their ratlike tendencies.

Next, call me a bastard, but I firmly believe that you never make critical sacrifices for your parents.  Fuck 'em that's what I say.  If they fuck up, it's their problem.  Your life is more important than other people's and you gotta be selfish because there isn't a single person in this world who'll look after you, unless they want something from you.]]></description>
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<title>Tomorrow Will Start</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Kinda nervous because it's like the kid who gets transferred from school to school with everyone watching him the first day. I'm betting the traffic will be terrible so I'm not looking forward to the commute at all.  Hopefully, it won't be as painful as it seems.  Oh why god did it have to be West Hollywood of all places?]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 07 Feb 2005 00:24:00 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Small World</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Met someone from my class in college the other day and today I spotted this lawyer from a previous company in my current spot.  Pretty funny, huh?  But I guess the whole technology world is pretty small.  Everyone really knows one another.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 08 Feb 2005 23:54:26 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Had party last night</title>
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<description><![CDATA[branding launched so they had a launch party at Red Rock across the street.  rented the private lounge and the owners kept shoveling food at us with free drinks for a good few hours.  got to meet some of the other crew members.  interesting people.  but this is the reason why LA needs a goddamn subway system.  sunset ain't no roppongi that's for sure.]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 24 Feb 2005 23:10:52 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>It's who you work for</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I've learned that one of the most important aspects of a job, especially a technical one, is the person in charge.  That person's views doesn't have to be precise in terms of being 100% correct for their business.  But that person will influence the way their business will perform overall.  So here's the thing when finding a job: forget about the pay and even what you're doing.  Look at who's running the show, how they treat people and what they prefer.  That'll make all the difference in the world.]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 07 Mar 2005 00:13:58 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>so far so good</title>
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<description><![CDATA[thus far, work has been decent.  people are nice, i'm getting projects where i get to code, learning new things and it's not out of control.  heard some complaints the other day but it really doesn't apply to me at the moment.  Two people have left but for personal reasons which didn't seem as relevant to the company's disposition. Others i think are just discontent because they need a new challenge and are at the level of doing more.  for myself, i'm in a growing phase so i don't really need to feel like pushing the envelope at the moment.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 12 Mar 2005 11:50:13 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>journal of being organized</title>
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<description><![CDATA[well kind of.  somethings to do at work:

* keep a daily journal of things you do.  Currently, i note all projects and bugs i'm working on and relevant information to them on top of the meetings i attend.  this journal tends to be more useful than the journal itself.  one fringe benefit is that you have a constant reference for things like time management systems, notes on how to do something, etc.  if you're stupid like me, you'll need a cheat pad basically.
* "What is the expected results?"  this statement reflects software engineering the way the scientific method works as a hypothesis leading to a deduction.  very good in getting requirements from the business side when they pester you in "why isn't this working?????"  well, define "how is it supposed to work?"  make them give you their requirements before you make a move.  it's not laziness on your part, but helping them improve the workflow.  it's also better than searching for a needle in the dark.
* "Ask what not how in requirements meetings."  Asking how at the requirements phase can kill a project dead by sending things into analysis paralysis.  At the implementation phase is where you should be asking how, not before.  If something is discovered at the implementation phase that borks the entire project, revisit the requirements phase and ask again if that item is really necessary.
* Never design to encompass everything.  A good product, imo, requires many spans to be well understood.  Upgrades to the system are going to be hacks, not elegant, well thought out solutions.  However, once the problem is better understood, you can do a complete redesign to encompass what you have learned about the system.  Those redesigns are the big version jumps as they represent the huge overhaul of the product.
* The biggest issue for a business is the delivery date.  How to answer that question?  If you're good about dates, add padding.  But realize (and make the business side realize) that the date in question is actually just a rush date.  Never kill yourself to work towards that delivery date; it's not worth it.  Instead, use that date as a relative figure of project; instead, the real date should be a factor of 1.5x that date (unless you have stooges working for and with you, in which case you should give up and increase the soil in the Earth).

more to come.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 19 Mar 2005 11:13:09 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Got 401k rolling</title>
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<description><![CDATA[still waiting to see some moolah go into it.  should be next paycheck.  too bad it takes time to vest though.  hopefully, my overall take home looks larger after the pretax deductions.]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 20 May 2005 01:34:04 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[Now they have me parking at Tower Records on Sunset Blvd.  What an awful place!  There's no easy way out.  On top of that, today I fucked up and wound up in Beverly Hills of all places because the area is impossible to navigate.  They really need more parking.  I suggest demolishing the little useless cafe next door on Hollowell and putting a comprehensive parking structure there.  Besides the basement is going to become the Tigris river at the current rate.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 07 Jun 2005 00:15:23 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>tech jobs viewed like a janitor position</title>
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<description><![CDATA[http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20050620/ap_on_hi_te/tech_job_decline]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 20 Jun 2005 10:58:11 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Finance Workers</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I believe these people have to be some of the most inherently evil people in the world.  First, anyone obsessed with money has no soul.  Second, it seems that the people who make the worst decisions on technology are those in the finance industry.  Funny thing is that they love to blame the technology for their incompetent design schemes when it blows up in their faces.  The only technical thing a finance should touch is either an abaccus or an excel spreadsheet.  they're about the same in usefulness and ease of use.  ]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 18 Aug 2005 11:03:05 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>dodgers tomorrow!</title>
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<description><![CDATA[not a big baseball fan but i got 4 tickets for the dodgers game tomorrow.  go me!  ]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 26 Aug 2005 23:08:15 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>never be afraid</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i love the movie office space.  i love the character of peter.  he's the most inspired character i've seen in a long time (next to Michael Bolton and Milton Wadams).  but his tirade on work with the consultants exemplify how the average person feels.  namely through this quote:

So that means when I make a mistake, I have eight different people coming by to tell me about it. That's my only real motivation is not to be hassled, that, and the fear of losing my job. But you know, Bob, that will only make someone work just hard enough not to get fired. 

the last part is something i hold true to my heart.  except that i've added to that philosophy from my friend from my last company who said, "i only show up to work to pick up my paycheck."  quite honestly though, i'm not even afraid of losing my job anymore.  it's not that i know my skills are good enough where i can find a better one with better pay.  it's that i don't think people should be pushed into a compromised position where they lose sanity and sleep over a crappy job.  

when you start getting The Memo and have eight different bosses coming over to tell you that you fucked up, then it's time to do the Office Space mambo.  buy a red Swingline stapler and start stroking it everytime you see guys in their private meetings with glances towards your direction.

we need unions in the tech industry...]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 03 Sep 2005 15:24:07 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>succeeding at work</title>
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<description><![CDATA[some people argue that talent/skill is one of the key factors in the success of one's career.  while that is true, i believe that a person's real strength at work is his/her allies.  a person who is naturally gifted at something like computers may fair well in the sense that he can get any job.  but those with people skills, who can manipulate and people under or around him, i believe are the ones that make it in this world.

all those fancy degrees are really a waste of time.  i'd prefer spending more time learning about the behavior of people.  you can academically learn about it, but applying that theory is more useful.  

going back to my point though, i'm learning the value of having key allies at work.  that is, people who will support you under almost any circumstances.  even if your boss is an evil dictator, if that person has no allies, it ought to be easy getting rid of him/her should you have many people who can rally at your cause.

that's why unions are so valuable.  it's a shame that the tech industry has no unions unlike other fields like teaching, movies, truck driving and airlines.  i think the problem is that geeks have no sense of social organization nor social skills period.  and they tend to get pushed around the most, preferring to hide behind their computers to unveil their problems (hmmmm.....)  but i think that tech workers should start forming unions so that businesses don't run them over.  look at what happened to the people at EA.  of course, EA got their ass kicked from whistleblowers, but that'll just result in EA moving jobs overseas.  still you can't move everything overseas.  if a labor union was involved, the whole company could easily be shut down.  i mean, the tech workers there are what make the core products, not the marketing/business assholes.  those idiots just make the deadlines for some impossible wetdream.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 07 Sep 2005 03:27:42 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[until my current tenure with ticketmaster.com is over.  project launched amazingly enough and now our stuff is out there.  go us!  right now, i'm riding out my last days and doing things slowly.  got my own interesting stuff coming up. but the big news is that i'll be going to Japan within the very near future.  how near?  i'd like to know myself!  that decision is for the ministry of Japan's immigration to decide.  hopefully, they decide soon so i can arrive prior to the winter.  go me!!!]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 05 Nov 2005 17:37:32 -0700</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[just took a look over at dice.com and it list nearly 80,000 jobs on it's site.  that's tech jobs mind you or jobs related to the tech field.  pretty amazing number consider a year ago i believe it was half that amount.  for those looking to jump ship (minus myself for good reason), don't look at that number as a purely positive sign of the economy.  if you have less than 5 years of experience, stick with your job for at least 2-3 years so that you can see the benefits of your allegiance.  walking away right now would still be tough unless you absolutely abhor what you do.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sun, 06 Nov 2005 23:50:27 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>it's over</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i just finished my little tenure at Ticketmaster so i can move back towards the Homeland.  spent an hour saying goodbyes to everyone.  it felt a little strange but at least this is one of those times where i got a chance to properly say my farewells.  NCG was far more emotional because of the length of time i was there and the fact that i liked so many people.  but this time i think it was cool.  most common question: when are you going back?  answer: i don't know exactly yet.  my only knowledge of returning to Tokyo is that it'll probably be sometime between late November through early December.  the earlier the better since i want to avoid as much of the winter cold as possible.

returning to the subject of work, i gotta say that i did enjoy it to a degree.  it's not the best place i've worked, not the worst.  but i did grow as an engineer and professional there.  if the location wasn't so god awful (and i'm certain everyone except maybe Barry and a few others there would agree with me on that), i think i would've enjoyed it a lot more.  

i wanted to get to know people better but my heart is so deadset on Tokyo that it's hard to relate.  it's more of an exotic thing that i don't think many people can relate to unless they've been there.  and when you're there for a significant amount of time, the whole environment charms you and makes you to want more.  it's a shame that i couldn't get a job like this earlier in my career since the people and general environment wasn't bad.  but at this stage of my life, i want something different.  and it's not in LA.

etiher way, i'd like to say a big thanks to Ticketmaster for giving me the opportunity of working for one of the best web companies around.  i hope to see you all in Japan someday!  ja mata desu!]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 12 Nov 2005 19:48:28 -0700</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[it amazes me that a company that only has two products (albeit big money makers) requires so many people to support this type of infrastructure (yes, i'm already bitching about my latest job acquisition).  900 friggin' people!  the IT section alone houses about 200+ people from what i've been told (not all permanent).  but today i learned about job stability.

i found out that we had a request team.  yes, a team that is hired to process requests.  in IT.  can you believe that?  this is like a glorified secretary position.  after that, the request goes to help desk.  then help desk distributes it again to the appropriate support group.  

from there, it gets better.  the NT group won't let a developer have admin privileges.  WTF??!!?!?!?  they are required to test all applications and ensure from an audit viewpoint that commercial applications aren't being installed.  this fucking sucks!  when i asked if i could have a list of available applications, the response was that they had one thousand applications so they couldn't maintain what one might need.  so here's the real thing: 1) you're telling me that you want to centralize control through the administration group; 2) that they're useless because they can't even manage the tiniest things.  i don't mind privilege providing except that everything is handled via paperwork.  that i DO mind.  not to mention that it takes forever to process a request when something is required. 

who the fuck smoked so much crap that they conceived of this notion?  how do people expect to get work done if they have to go through all these layers?  

in the end, i just find this to be humorous.  it's so funny it makes Office Space, Dilbert and Brazil look like Shakespearean tragedies.  the only thing i really worry about is getting yelled at.  

either way, it seems like whoever the production support manager is has managed to squall away all the political power by doing these policies like this.  very sad.  heard this guy is beyond useless too.  somewhat on the level of Terry Farris useless.]]></description>
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<description><![CDATA[i've been going out nearly every day this week and my work has significantly piled up.  i had to take tonight "off" just to stay later than usual.  not to mention some of the guys are out and that i have two major projects in the company.  good for me careerwise.  too bad my energy isn't as high as before.  getting old...]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 26 Jan 2006 06:43:21 -0700</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[when i arrive at work today, we're going to have a battle between mostly myself and the international enterprise architect.  it's going to be bloody, brutal, lots of instines flowing and plenty of bad hair kung fu.  never thought i'd get into something like this.  but the time has come upon us where i unveil the real King of the land, cast off the ranger and become whom i meant to be!

uh, or just push the right software to the forefront to the other pointy hairs in the meeting ;)]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 20 Apr 2006 16:06:23 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[mike judge should get a noble peace (or piece) prize for Office Space.  it's just so true to the genre of living in a cubicle (whether or not that part is open or enclosed is irrelevant).  

as you can tell from these lines, things ain't going so well.  the battle of independence wages on, but at least point they're losing one corporal.

Burke: "He's just a grunt...no offense."
Hicks: "None taken."

i decided to shift my strategy a little by making the business side more responsible for this whole fiasco.  and yes it is a fiasco.  decisions shouldn't be so difficult.  yes, lots of money is involved.  but they shouldn't have their drones installed so obediently disregard all the hard work the locals have done just because some fat, old entity sitting on her throne and her obese, stinky version of Wormtongue Grimer advises her and finds ways to sabotage a project.  but that's the world i pretty much work in.

all this clarified one thing: globalization is a horrible thing.  more than that though it's America pushing its agenda perpetually on any nation just because they have the muscle.  that is the reality of what's going on.  they ignore local concerns to support their own agenda.  and boy do they have agendas! 

the other thing to be learned from this is that the people in charge are nothing more than yes-men (and women) trying to assure the US side that the US' agenda is kept at all cost. the rest of us peons are just here to support the installed lieutenants otherwise they'd do cutting.  zero risk for them as they are here on paid vacations.  while the rest of us must deal with the consequences in the long term.  but the majority of these people are clueless in terms of how business is done here.  there are critical protocols to be observed and when they aren't, large consequences befall those.  just because these idiots come in with their bad accents thinking they're all cute, doesn't mean people think they're cute.  lots of resentment being spoken while they misinterpret the language.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 26 Apr 2006 10:42:25 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[i have now two equally incompetent project managers for the Project From Hell.  did anyone bother telling the CAO that two idiots don't make a smarter person?  this new jackass is supposedly here to help the original project manager to move the project forward.  instead, he complicates things because he doesn't understand BTD's processes.  he doesn't understand them but worse yet, he doesn't even bother investigating what they are.  how can he manage IT related projects if he doesn't understand what the basic IT processes are?  i have to go to the gym as much as possible so that i don't beat people up.  ]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 23 May 2006 07:23:05 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>just watched Office Space</title>
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<description><![CDATA[the two project managers i have are definitely Bill Lumberg clones.  i'm also going to nickname them "Beavis and Butthead" from now on.  during meetings i'll start going off saying, "Yeaaaah....That'll be great."]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 23 May 2006 10:25:24 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[so i determined which one is which finally (at work of course).  the new guy without question is beavis.  the other day butthead actually impressed me with a sufficient explanation of the current project from hell.  however, i had to endure a 9:00 am conference call earlier.  my god, putting the phone near my ear was like taking a needle to clean your ear!  the worst part was when beavis would talk. he has the most obnoxious voice and accent (he's german!) so i'm completely being gang raped by these four on the phone with little recourse.  i so badly wanted to slam the phone down or just put it away and let these morons jabber.  however, my worst fear was that they would ask a question; and naturally they did!

probably the most obnoxious thing about beavis is that he attempts to contribute advice.  however, as i discovered, he only joined the company two weeks ago.  two weeks ago and they're moving him into such an important project!  i learned from a fellow coworker though the way you deal with the LSD department (my acronym for the project management group whose acronym sounds similar) is that you basically ignore them whenever possible.  i never thought someone could be worse than butthead, but as one of my coworkers had warned there are!!!!!  

ack!  the horror!  the horror!

the scary part was that this bozo was given a title of something important sounding like executive project manager or something.  i don't know how he managed to con his way into the company but it just convinces me that the company is dumber than a kid sniffing glue.  i guess the dumber you are in the company, the higher your rank.  i bet if i started snorting propane, i'd be promoted to CEO at this rate!  yeah baby!  propane!!!!]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 25 May 2006 09:35:24 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>analysis of the analysis of the analysis of the....</title>
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<description><![CDATA[in order to make my company more efficient, they had hired a group of consultants to examine the processes to see how to improve this aspect.  sound like a familiar movie?  we joked that if we had to do interviews with these guys we would say our job is to bring the software specifications from the customers to the engineers and that our secretaries would be the ones doing the actual delivery.

i wish what they would institute is a rule saying that no individual is allowed to have more than 2 meetings a day, for a maximum of a 2 hour duration in total with a total number of meetings being 8 hours a week.  the other 32 hours would be devoted to "real" work.  instead, conduct information gathering sessions over chat and/or email (or better yet, blogs).  think how much time that would save!  especially if you're in IT where you should be dealing with technology.]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 26 May 2006 21:13:49 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[i had a bizarre victory here that i believe will be short lived; that is, one of the project managers (butthead) had announced he would be quitting the company.  party on!  then the subheading mentioned that another guy, reportedly a bigtime class A-hole, will be taking his place.  i suppose victory shall be relished while it's available.  rally the troops!  fire the cannons!  don't let these mongloid wannabes attempt to breach our sacred city!]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 29 May 2006 10:23:31 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[today went better than yesterday.  there was a painful meeting i was forced to attend but fortunately one of my co-architects was there to help prevent me from the onslaught of three project managers.  it's assured one guy is absolutely an idiot.  the biggest problem is that he opens his mouth without attempting to really understand what's going on and disagrees with everyone 70% of the time.  i don't mind it if an idiot just sits there.  it's when an idiot decides that his asshole needs to speak that i have an issue over pollution.  i really hope this guy trips over his shoelaces, tumbles down the stairs and breaks both his knees.  really this is the type of guy who should be only allowed to work as a waiter.  it would help minimize the damage such a foolish humanoid could do to the environment.

tomorrow is going to suck because there's an early morning meeting and a late night meeting.  i'm certain that the project manager who is leaving is a sociopath.  even this business analyst who is here from the states mentioned that we have endless meetings.  doesn't anyone here get the hint?

i seriously think they should implement a rule that project managers should not be allowed to book more than 2 hours of meetings a day for non-managers.  i mean, eventually you have to get real work done.  it's sad when you begin believing that submitting an email is considered real work.  

on the positive side, my day more or less ended on a positive note from Moe or Hermes.  Hermes accepted my invitation from yesterday!  Moe!  Hermes!  Kiiiiitaaaaaa!!!!!]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 31 May 2006 09:10:44 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[that's how i feel about being an architect in my company.  i'm not architect.  i'm just another yes man.  i don't see the point anymore.  fortunately, i have other things going my way....]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 01 Jun 2006 10:18:32 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[just when you thought the de-evolution of humans wasn't possible, reverse Darwinism pulls a fast one on you and you go home with a throbbing head pondering to God or Satan "Why!?!?!"  so right now, there's a problem with this piece of crap software that we bought for SOA.  the problem deals with double byte characters.  but because everyone has their hair standing from their asses, no one is giving proper thought in how to deal with this problem nor assaulting the fact that the problem wasn't remedied through asking the vendor to help us (which for whatever they refused).

anyway, upper management came to architecture to examine the problem.  we came back with some proposed solutions to briefly examine what's going on.  as the solution was located, the manager of the key person working on this came up and basically told us to fuck off.  you would think that any decent human being would respect the fact that you'd tried to help another person with their problem.  i mean, in the end, who are you really trying to help here?  fostering a negative environment only breeds hostile feelings.  i don't see the point.

actually i do see the point.  the point is that people suck.  okay, that's the extremely high level condensed, cliff notes version.  the more verbose explaination is that trying to pick up scraps from a place that hands out feces for scraps just ain't worth it.  it's sad that people have to resort to low blows and derogatory comments.

reminds me of that scene in Terminator 2 where you had these little kids fighting and John O'Conner commenting, "We're not going to make it, huh?" to the terminator.  or how in Lord of the Flies the navy people discovering the kids on the island about to kill the main character while war occurs in the background.

for all the idealisms that we'd like to move towards in terms of the Star Trek realm or the visions of heavenly grace from the Christian viewpoint, the truth of the matter is that Man is violent.  biologically, we are here to compete, get resources, and survive.  i have to reiterate this.

the saddest part is that the people involved in this are intelligent, rationale people.  yet this goes to demonstrate again how rationale != the best interest for everyone.  this is what we live with and what we have to deal with daily.  worse yet, i hate when people attempt to engender pompous idealisms to blanket the core issues at stake.  these problems don't go away.  your dick suddenly doesn't stop trying to harden up when you see a hot girl just because you have hardcore catholic beliefs.  nor does your finger on a trigger cease to pull when you see someone beating the hell out of your wife.  

all i know is that if i had bill gates' money, i'd invest in brainwashed, single purposed scientist to make me conformer pills and force the entire population to imbibe them and assert my will over everyone.  then again, isn't that what the government is doing anyway?]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 06 Jun 2006 10:45:43 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[last week they actually did some progressive: they made a decision and they made the right one.  just when you think that Man can take one step away from the crib, you get a day like today.  yesterday, i left early because i had little to do (and felt that i deserved one day to leave early).  today i came in late because physically i was really exhausted. so i received a pair of emails (at different periods) about my departure and my arrival times.  i thought we had flex time?  what kind of bullshit are people pulling on us? 

then tomorrow i was asked to join a 9 am review meeting.  they should NEVER schedule meetings before 10 am unless it's critical (such as a conference call).  and they should never call a meeting for the sake of having a meeting.  i reviewed the document they asked me to look at.  next thing i get reprimanded for saving people time and some sleep.  oh and someone decided to go crying to my manager.  

so in the spirit of Lizzy Borden, i'm putting on my gloves and pulling no punches from here on out (and if you missed the reference it's from "Me Against the World.")  i'm going to be like Bush, you're either with me, or against me.  i will become like a Sith Lord and deal only in absolutes.  i will hit below the belt if it means knocking some dumb ass out.  i will attempt to create tension and play people against each other.  they want me to be in the middle?  i'll play the middle and act like the force of gravity between two airplanes in a midair collision.

Alice Cooper and Megadeth once said, "No More Mr Nice Guy!"  I agree wholeheartedly!]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 13 Jun 2006 08:59:07 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[I just was reading how this one google employee has roughly one meeting per month.  here, i get 5 friggin' meetings in one day!  i couldn't even sign off a document because i was literally in meetings all day.  in fact, some of my meetings overlapped to the point where i had to ditch one for another.  and quite honestly, only one meeting was productive.  the rest made me think that i could've been more productive sleeping on the toilet.

some days i just want to go back strictly to coding....]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 16 Jun 2006 08:42:27 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[great dilbert about a skunk who enters the Dilbert alternate reality called "Stinky Pete."  i originally had written in to scott adams about a guy at work, who is notorious for having horrendous body odor.  there was an incident where my boss tried to put me in charge of finding a device to detect for this guy's odor since it could've been a departmental problem.  either way, whether or not scott took part of my idea and put it into his strip, this has to be one of the funniest comics i've seen in a while.  i'm definitely going to put it on my cubicle when i get back to japan.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 05 Jul 2006 07:24:59 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[your company blocks wikipedia and labels it as "pr0n."  well, that aptly describes my place.  i hope whoever did this at my place has bad ingestion and gets hepatitis C from bad oysters.  i absolutely hate my spot right now.  it's utterly miserable.]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 21 Aug 2006 10:12:47 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA["I am the IT Lead.  So what I say must go!"

...despite the fact that you're essentially putting your IT expertise into an ape that in reality has no clue about real IT.  that's what i get to deal with.  or rather what my coworker got to deal with.  suddenly, it just motivates me even more to come up with a piece of crap system or consulting company because i'm utterly convinced i'd be making far more money being a REAL Dogbert than idly idolizing him.

either way, this company is doing a lot of long term damage to my career.  good thing i have spare time to work on my own stuff otherwise i'd be completely stagnate.]]></description>
<pubDate>Mon, 04 Sep 2006 09:43:00 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[i interviewed a mediocre man yesterday morning.  his resume was essentially fabricated to match the job description.  i immediately was alerted to this deceptive practice and decided to nail him with some basic technical questions.  the worst possibility would've been to put him as a manager of my group.

my coworker and i set forth this task but i almost automatically knew the outcome.  nonetheless, if he could pass through me, even though his English was poor, i would've hired him on the spot.   seeing this person i immediately knew he would fail.  he had this "oyaji-poi" look to him, which meant he was destined for some middle management comfy position.  i resisted the urge to puke in his face and smear the vomit across his balding pate.

first question: what's the difference between a stack, queue and linked list?
second question: what's an object and what is a class?
third question: what is a hash?  and when would you use it over an array?

he said some programming experience in a distant life, but his stumbling for answers as i progressively addressed fundamental CS meant that he was a VB hack.  his hands trembled when we asked him to diagram various systems and it was quite clear he was completely unprepared for our style of an interview.

afterwards, i learned that the first interview consisting of two of our main application development managers found him propitious.  actually, they were surprised when they learned from my coworker and me that he was unfit to be in a technological management position. part of that told me that the Japanese interview process is far too lenient and possibly this results in mediocre, subpar and just horrible people lying around, taking space and paychecks in companies.

for myself, i dished out the same punishment i've received for the past 7 years.  i've received my share of beatings in interviews, but each time i strove to improve my knowledge to the point where i could survive any technical interview.  in that sense, i've been forged into crass steel like Aragorn's sword in LOTR.  

on the other hand, i did feel some sympathy for this poor fool.  not sympathy before but pity afterwards.  this person put on his resume his marital status and the fact that he had children.  he would have to face the music and tell them that he failed.  eventually, he'd have to find some means to feed them. also, he was losing his hair and bumbling.  he reminded me of Gollum when Faramir beat the crap out of him.  but let's face it: don't try to tackle what you can't handle.  my company is already overloaded with tons of useless dead weights.  why have another?]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 20 Sep 2006 06:35:56 -0600</pubDate>
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<description><![CDATA[is it me or do is it the case where companies who rely on their core technologies as Windows just bearing dumber people than those with Linux or Unix based systems (i haven't worked in a pure Mac environment nor do i intend to)? anyway, i've worked in few, if not, no pure Windows shops, but my current one is a major Windows spot.  one thing i noticed is that the quality of employees are quite low...at least for the technology side. perhaps the reason is that the majority of the people are VB6 programmers (and COBOL guys thrown in).  i think VB and Windows just naturally dumbs people down.  

take for example how my boss comes running up to me last night and goes, "You're a tools engineer, right?  so what does end of support really mean for VB6?"  and then later we started discussing the idea of migrating VB6 to .NET since tools were provided to handle the migration.  the funniest thing was that he seemed to make the automatic assumption that if you use a tool to migrate from VB6 to .NET it's automagic and your worries go away.  WRONG!  you still have to deal with the skill set required.  not to mention re-testing the application up and down to ensure that it works.  but his reaction to this was like a child on XMas morning finding a toy under the XMas tree.

i should've lied to him and said that it'll blow up the entire department and that the only path for migration was PHP with Symfony.

the funniest thing is that people think they can get into technology just by purchasing a computer off the shelf, noodling around on MSIE and suddenly call themselves part of IT.  homey don't play dat.]]></description>
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<description><![CDATA[i'm having another day where i really am beginning to re-think whether or not i should stay in IT.  i think IT has empowered and crippled me.  the one positive thing i can say IT has provided me was the ability to travel to Japan.  of all the things, this meant the most to me.  all the material elements of cars, Lego, computers, etc. are momentary things in my life.

but some days i feel false in my pursued path.  i got back the results from an interview which touched upon my lack of fundamentals.  IT is really just a hobby that pays the bills.  i know i like being involved, but i don't know if i love it.  anymore.  

perhaps i've been poisoned with my experience. or perhaps it just never really was my calling card.  my programming isn't incredible.  it's not like the Doom engine or google.  it's just well communicated and structured.

just like my writing.

in terms of writing, i've always had confidence in that.  especially prose.  

this past year i turned mostly away from prose to focus on something that could give me quick money.

did i just fuck up?

the funny thing about IT is that it's really not hard.  but people make it difficult.  i don't know why.  you have to conform to this standard or that standard.  why?  why all this crap?  why put down this bureaucratic nonsense?  

this is getting tiring.  i've worked hard for the past 7 years and never found a real reward except being able to live in Japan.  that was the only thing i ever found rewarding about being part of IT.

funny part is that i'm starting to have flashbacks from college.  the days in the long hours in the labs.  CS people had a different existence from the humanities people.  where did the humanities people go?  but the CS people were mostly a bunch of backstabbing fuckers.  i couldn't excel because of that.  now a lot of the same people are people i'd end up working with (well not exactly but you get the point)

i feel like i should be at a different point in my life.  i feel that the last 7 years have been wasted where i could've been doing more writing.  instead, my dad's in a nursing home and my mom is insane waiting for something to happen.  it's sad.  where'd my life go?

stick to your guns.  that's what i should've done.

CS has been poisoning me.  i think if i continue on this route, i'll lose it. it really isn't my personality in the end. but where next?]]></description>
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<title>unbearable</title>
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<description><![CDATA[that's the keyword for my office.  i wish the CAO opened his eyes and fired 90% of the help desk team (namely a guy with the initials KR) and replaced them with people who have talent.  but that's my latest gripe towards the office.  oh well.  that just motivates me to come in late and leave early.  if the company fires me, i'll get severance and/or unemployment so i can sit on my ass with free checks for a bit.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 25 Oct 2006 10:13:22 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>another day of hell</title>
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<description><![CDATA[if work were like the IMDB top worst movies of all time, i would be watching Manos Hand of Fate without the MST3K shielding on a Friday in Nebraska.  that is the labor required just to appear.  my body slows down to a crawl as i'm trying to convince myself that another day is really worth the puny paycheck i receive at the end of the month.  right now, it's hard to say where this ranks in terms of worst job of all times in my top 10 (because that's how many jobs i've had already!!!!).  i've had some really rotten jobs.  iyou, Way Internet.  Nikko Citigroup too was awful but i still learned something there and got quite a bit before things turned to shit when a certain person took over.  and it was good at the beginning.  actually, every company i've worked for i've usually learned or accomplished something.

i can't say that about my current company!

i learned just a few things but i feel like i've accomplished nothing.  environmentally and career-wise this makes it by far the worst job i've had.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 25 Oct 2006 18:35:42 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>CIO: Mr. Paycheck</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I've got two names for our new CIO: Mr. Paycheck and Mr. Importance.  The guy has basically built himself a little castle with the door perpetually closed.  He doesn't talk to us "regular" employees so no one really knows what's going on in his mind.  Yet, he likes to throw numbers out at people.  Naturally, I question the meaning of these numbers.  To me these are scare tactics for him to quantify how much he supposedly knows compared to the rest of peons.

The other thing about this guy is that he's so bent on security.  When he gave us a speech the other day, he drew out a paradoxical situation: the importance of fast product launches and the elevation of security.  He mentioned how he compared data theft growing in insurance from 1 case in the previous year to 6 cases.  To most people if they looked at a raw percentage, you'd see a 600% growth.  Still, 6 cases is small compared to the number of employees with production level access per company.  Yet this is his buzzword because it is the industry buzzword.  And he of course wants to be more bleeding edge in technology.

Let's face it: this ain't gonna happen.

And I have a story to share about this is.  My Oracle administrator at an old company once told me his "ideal" database was one with nothing in it.  Why?  There's nothing to worry about!  But naturally, this implies that the database is completely USELESS!!!!!

Anyone who has any REAL experience doing REAL IT work (as opposed to handing out papers and reading magazines or even just turning on/off their PC) realizes that part of system administration entails removing/locking down functionality to minimize the threats available.  However, when strict access becomes critical, the thing that follows is an enormous amount of bureaucracy that slows down growth.

If you have a good IT organization where systems minimize the bureaucratic nonsense, this might not be such a problem.  Ideally, you want a system or organization that automates all the privileges for a user based on their role in the company.

Problem with my shop is that WE HAVE NOTHING LIKE THAT IN PLACE.  that means, this speech was a load of crap (which was obvious but this needs to be publicly stated).

The truth is that no one will be able to do any work without the proper authorization systems that provide automated entitlements since the company runs heavily on paper forms.  When a production system goes down, you have to produce an audit trail to fix the problem.  Fortunately, for this type of business, it's not a huge issue.  But the long term effects of this vision are going to truly hurt the company's growth and the net result will be increased hours for IT and massive delays in launching products.  I'm not even talking about the problems with being able to create any reusable components.

But what can you expect from some guy who's just a figurehead.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 28 Oct 2006 13:23:31 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>horrible week</title>
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<description><![CDATA[just a horrible week.  no way else to describe it.  the problem i see in life is that when something goes wrong, everything seems to go wrong at the same time.  this is one of those weeks.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:44:39 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>To IT or Not To IT: That is the real question</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i'm starting to realize that my passion for IT is probably equal to my desire to date a fat chick.  it feels the same too (although I've never had a fat girlfriend).  the thing with IT is that it has paid the bills for sometime now and probably will continue to pay the bills.  however, i'm getting to the point where just paying the bills isn't enough.  i need something more.

i've stated before that i want to exit the IT industry by the time i'm 40.  honestly, i want to get out now.  i'm really burnt out.  i'm burnt out of the people, the politics, the stupid decision making processes, the religious wars, the absurd amount of money spent (without giving back to the workers) and generally speaking the majority of the people involved.  i do have good friends in IT, but most who i consider good friends are not hardcore IT types.  they have a life, understand the value of getting out, and realize a job is a job.

actually, i really like IT...the development, the construction of working systems, etc.  i just don't like everything else around it.  the pay isn't worth the headaches and problems.  i want to be involved at the creative level but i know just being a programmer won't let me do that.  i must move above a typical programmer and become a visionary.  

but i think my real calling is still the writing aspect.  not of IT, but just writing fiction.  i need to concentrate on this area.  this is my real career.

i think if i were to stay in IT much longer it would have to be under the terms of me getting married to a hot babe (hopefully Moe).  i wouldn't stay in Japan much longer and would come back to LA to concentrate on IT related issues.  but if i couldn't marry Moe, i'll push myself to write more and improve my Japanese to native level.  there is no in between.  also, if i can't get help on my webpage, then there's no point in having me continue working on it.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 21 Nov 2006 03:12:15 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>on the spot</title>
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<description><![CDATA[http://www.dilbert.com/comics/dilbert/archive/images/dilbert20366532070123.gif

Scott Adams is on target the last two days.  I swear Mr. Adams is expressing the way Japanese offices are setup.  If American offices are the same in magnitude, then I might as well just stay in   But fortunately in the companies I've been employed at in America, I've NEVER encountered things as terrible as my current situation.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 23 Jan 2007 05:56:55 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>Cyrus the Virus (Dilbert)</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Cyrus the Virus has struck my company as expected.  It didn't take too long before the lieutenants started moving in.  It's amazing how this is Cyrus the Virus is more of a management (or corporate) strategy rather than just one person.  The good thing though is that once you see a Cyrus the Virus, you can recognize it the next time the situation occurs.

Fortunately for people like myself, apathy tends to be one's savior.  If one doesn't care about Cyrus the Virus and his venomous incisions, then the disease is numbed from the outset.

The saddest thing is that you have crappy laws like SOX, which really do little to protect the shareholders and other investors, but does nothing for employees.  In fact laws like SOX make employees just do more overtime.  It would be nice if a law like SOX could prevent the Cyrus the Virus syndrome from occurring in corporations.  But I guess that nepotism is just part of human nature so we won't see it go away through better social engineering.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 03 Feb 2007 23:24:52 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>The Office Sucks Cock</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Not the TV show.  The real thing (at least for me).  They're going to "improve" the web filter and block more sites that might potentially be useful in doing research, just so that people can be more productive.  Funny, but i thought the little survey that said people were unhappy about the work environment had some sort of "action" plan.  Was this part of it?

So instead of trying to create a better, more enjoyable work environment, HLIKK continues to create a hostile work environment of pure resentment.  Funny thing is that people continue to walk out left and right, mostly the better people and it doesn't seem to phase upper management.  Upper management continue to put on a face about creating action plans, etc. to make work more bearable, but I've yet to see any concrete thing occur.

But this is typical of a bureaucratic pile of fecal matter.  There was an interesting part in the Dilbert book "Way of the Weasel" about this type of situation.  The end result is the same: nothing gets done.

It's really no wonder why other companies are slamming HLIKK.  But then again, according to my sources, no one should expect this company to last more than 2 years.  Not because of lack of money, but that some other company will buy them out.

If this is true, then all these "action plans" not only mean nothing, but that everyone is expected to lose their job.  I doubt that the main company is aware of this.  But my gut feeling is that people internally are purposefully sabotaging the company and then sell it to a Japanese one.  Of course, the executives make out like bandits while the rest of us peons are stuck with either a pink slip or a cruddy environment.

It's a shame if this happens too, not because I care an ounce for this shithole, but that I actually like quite a bit of the staff.  The management can (and probably will) burn in the Abyss, but most of the regular staff are good people just trying to make it.

Some people might think, "Hey isn't that a risk that you're posting such a blog?"  I think it's my ethical duty to continue to expose publicly what's known.  Even if it costs me my job, I find the way people are being handled in my company completely immoral and unethical.  This has to stop.

That said, here's a fuck you to Jackie (who by the way, if you get rid of the letters "ie" and replace them with "ass" you get my exact sentiments) because you're a fucking clueless, little drone who's protected by your smoking buttbuddy, who's not only clueless but a goof that just collects a paycheck.  And it's a shame that we have a "leader" like Hans because he's made so many mistakes that the Titanic looks like a pebble being dropped into a pond by comparison.

Maybe I'm making a big deal over something small this one time, but I have integrity unlike the rest of the buttfuck management who don't give a shit about their employees.  And unlike those cocksucking stooges in their ivory glass rooms, I actually care and tell my coworkers the truth rather than playing games with them.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sun, 04 Mar 2007 02:44:02 -0700</pubDate>
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<title>the start of pain tomorrow</title>
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<description><![CDATA[well, it's unfortunate that tomorrow i have a meeting with the CIO from 10 am.  but i'll make sure i'm out of the office by 6 pm sharp.  but i'll also make an effort to take longer coffee breaks, progress slower on projects and do longer, out-of-office lunches while the web blocking crap goes on.  i don't think the idiot CAO realizes that web surfing at work is good....it helps lower stress.  but like i said, i'll just make sure to leave earlier every day.  no sense staying in a pitiful environment.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sun, 11 Mar 2007 10:04:34 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>it's official</title>
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<description><![CDATA[my office is the second worst work environment i've ever been in.  the only thing that tops this is the iyou.com warehouse job.  if pay and benefits weren't an issue, this job would be at the same level as iyou.com.  the only redeeming quality at this point is that there are a lot of nice looking women in the office. i pity some of these women for being trapped in such a horrible inferno.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 13 Mar 2007 07:45:58 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>revenge!!!!!</title>
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<description><![CDATA[tonight we had (actually in progress as i type this) a "Lost In Translation" experience.  our architect was forced to explain the whole design while some translators were frantically interpretting for some goof ball developers in Japan.  this was awesome.  i couldn't stop laughing.  i swear it was like listening to Bill Murray shooting that commercial in the movie.  i'm going to leave that movie on someone's desk when i send it to myself in Japan.  i told these morons how difficult this would be and that it would be a gigantic waste of time.  but management in their perpetual infinite widsom said, "We MUST try!!!"  the capitals as i type sharpen just as the points in the managers' hair shoot straight up.

the best part was the growing impatience in the architect's voice as the interpretters returned with multiple questions, interruptions, or other forms of exhibitions of misunderstandings.  as  i sit in my chair with my ear propped to the ringer, idling as i await this enduring call to end, i can't help but laugh in attempted silence for the hilarity in this scenario.  i think the others over here in the US are half listening or probably got the phone on speaker mode while doing something else.

all i can say is that i savor each second of pain for the people involved for the scintillating brilliance of such a decision.  it's so easy for these goofballs just to snap their fingers and make a decision without thinking about the processes involved.  neophytes.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 15 May 2007 21:35:25 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>making management a felony offense</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i think management should be a felony offense.  seriously.  the whole notion of management is a serious misdemeanor to one's sense of self-respect and intelligence.  it should be a crime against humanity, except when people are certified.  or maybe those managers are equally dangerous and should be sent to an island with a single coconut tree.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 15 May 2007 22:05:18 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>one last try....</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i'm giving the company one last chance: hire my friend or i walk (after i get reimbursed for this crappy trip).  they've blown through every chance i've given them.  now, it's just a matter of time before i hand them my walking papers. i figure that if they're so clueless to not even hire my friend for the right price, then there's no good reason to stick around any longer and waste my time.

let me just document this part though: HLIKK is, indeed, an IT sweat shop.  it's the lowest of the low, they have the cash but spend too much on crap and not enough for the good people. they'll never learn that the recourse for their actions is to fire most of upper management (e.g. CAO, the directors in CSD[aka LSD], SEDM, etc.). but of course since these goons control the place, there's little chance of that happening.

let me get this point straight though: The Hartford is a good company, at least from what I've seen.  it's just HLIKK is a wreck.  as i described it to my friend, it's like watching the people watching a car wreck while waiting in traffic for the people watching the car wreck to stop staring and move on.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 15 May 2007 23:40:17 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>more will quit</title>
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<description><![CDATA[more examples of the failure of leadership at HLIKK now is demonstrable through another announced departure.  on top of that, another highly valued person is rumored to be looking.  it's a shame that management refuses to open up its eyes and move in with counteroffers.  however, i feel that no one with an ounce of sanity and a few brain cells to boot will dare stay much longer.   since i have no sanity left, i continue to stay.<br />
<br />
inside, i can feel the mental breakdown of all the employees, especially in technology.  for myself i have a perpetual chip on my shoulder, waiting for someone to knock it off.  i think the people around me are far too scared of the reprocusions so they hide in their little cubicles, repressed.]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 03 Jul 2007 08:16:22 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Carrying One's Weight</title>
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<description><![CDATA[people probably wonder why i'm so angry at work.  what makes me crazy?  why am i pissed off all the time?  i think my biggest problem is that i see a lot of dead weights.  people who drag other people down.  i can trust them to handle tasks.  it drives me nuts because i have to end up doing double the work.  worse yet, i despise how people don't proactively take responsibility on themselves.  <br />
<br />
naturally, i want to be helpful.  but also i'm someone who feels that if people don't do the work themselves, it's just better for me to handle it.  that's what happens anyway because i just absorb the crap from other people.  so why not just do everything myself and save the wasted time of having other people get involved?<br />
<br />
either way, i think my office just needs a cleansing.  it's the only real way to survive.  well, definitely cleansing the IT department.]]></description>
<pubDate>Wed, 04 Jul 2007 08:30:29 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>like an egg falling from the top of a high building...</title>
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<description><![CDATA[i cracked pretty hard today and yelled at people.  i was so fed up that i yelled, cursed and walked out of another useless meeting.  but i told people what i think everyone else was really thinking.  it wasn't professional what i did, but neither has been how they've been treating me.  i hope someone sets fire to the building so that people jump out the windows and break their ankles and knee caps.]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 05 Jul 2007 00:16:37 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>maybe HLIKK has moved up to #1</title>
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<description><![CDATA[but as the worst company i've ever worked at. in terms of existing companies that i've ever worked at, this is true.  right now, i'm sitting at home totally stressed out and mentally paralyzed.  i've only been in this type of state twice in my life.  once after i graduated from college (a kind of de-pressurizing period) and the second was when i came back to LA from Japan and had my pre-ticketmaster stint.  i've never felt so trapped in my life where i can't win no matter what.  i didn't eat all day and i barely can move.  it's terrible.  i'm experiencing prolonged periods where i just stop and stare at my monitor, not knowing what to do.<br />
<br />
i'm thinking of going to a shrine and praying for a meteor fragment to collide with the building.  that would make life much easier.<br />
<br />
overall, what can i say?  i was reading today an article talking about unions in pro-wrestling.  i think they need unions in IT as well.  there really hasn't been much protection for workers in IT.  i read about stories like Electronic Arts and how they were abusing employees with long hours, until someone blew the whistle on them.  the closest thing to a union in IT is a consulting firm.  but that's not really a union.  there needs to be consistent governance of IT labor so that all employers treat people in IT equally.  required governance should include the following:<br />
<br />
- a set number of work hours<br />
- required work hours exceeding the set amount would force employers to pay the workers a certain amount over a period<br />
- regulated pay managed by the union.  pay must be consistent with experience and industry type.  this will prevent employers from underpaying people as well as creating a unified pay structure that prevents one company from easily snatching another just because of things like stock options or better pay (in other words, it works both ways).<br />
- all benefits would be managed through the union<br />
- certain work conditions are required (e.g. allowed breaks every 15 minutes, health checks for things like eye sight)<br />
- continued training and testing to ensure skills can meet demand would be provided by the union, resulting in a higher quality workforce and preventing labor from easily being outsourced overseas<br />
- certain conditions being required before allowing outsourcing; in other words, a legal check list of items approved by the union in a certain district to prevent companies from easily lowering cost and causing local employees from losing their jobs<br />
- the inability for companies to mark with prejudice employees who constantly jump ship; it is up to the employer to constantly provide satisfactory working conditions before demonstrating that a person can be classified as a job hopper.  And those working conditions must be periodically approved by the union.<br />
- opportunities for those who choose to move to different industries.  for instance, a web developer being allowed to go to gaming.  in these instances, the union would provide training to allow the developer to meet demands.<br />
- allowing the union to boycott companies accused of abusing this body.  the intent is to penalize/cripple companies who disagree with these terms while ensuring that these companies do not attempt to go around the union by giving under-the-table bribes to people.<br />
- the constant education of potential employers in the realm of IT so that IT is consistently handled among companies.<br />
<br />
obviously, there are more issues at stake.  however, i think this is a good start as a potential charter for an IT union.  what has been made clear to me as someone working in the IT industry for 8 years is that IT typically is an abused area.  almost every industry requires an IT component these days.  however, few really understand how to handle IT; generally these companies that understand IT are older, more experienced companies that have good staff.  the newer ones that are not focused around IT but want to utilize it tend to be the ones that have the hardest time grasping the concept of IT because they are more business driven.  no matter what the scenario is here, it's necessary for the industry to be regulated by a union for fairness.<br />
<br />
when i see so many failed software projects or environments that are strict and prohibitive because of certain regulations, i feel that the responsibility is on the business side because their demands for IT were too high and their understanding for the necessary processes and resources have been inadequate.  for instance, i see these people with certifications on PMP who never worked on a single piece of software in their life.  however, when given a software project, they never listen to their developers and don't wrap their heads around the IT side.  the excuse is, &quot;I'm not technical!&quot;  if that's going to be the case, why even allow these people the opportunity for partaking in these projects?  while i do agree that software projects are probably some of the hardest to handle due to the ubiquitous nature of software, i find it unsettling that companies continue to allow non-qualified people to handle them.  just as unsettling is seeing people who lack proper experience lead groups because of corporate nepotism or unethical favoritism.<br />
<br />
i think the software industry in general has been polluted with so many different types of people that it has been hard for companies to correctly judge their qualifications.  if the qualifications were certified not just through exams, but through a regulatory body like a union, i feel that this pollution would be lessened.  naturally, other industries are impacted such as recruiting.<br />
<br />
but thing about software is that it's a peculiar industry.  sure, the industry is relatively young compared with others like sales or marketing.  however, it's mature enough to start formalizing how companies interact with it.  people in IT are especially peculiar.  what other industry would someone really care about staring at their screen all day at a bizarre language?  there has not been a good way of representing this industry and especially the people.<br />
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i think it's time to create a union for IT.  without it those of us in IT will be continually abused.]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 06 Jul 2007 05:26:45 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>drugs and the work world</title>
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<description><![CDATA[so many people have been villainizing Chris Benoit, his so-called drug abuse, etc.  today, i'm sitting in my chair, dreading to go to work tomorrow, but yet realizing why people might do these things.  my father was doing stuff too, i'm somewhat ashamed to say.  however, finally i can sympathize with these people. i'm not condoning drugs but i was thinking to myself how one could trick him or herself in entering a different reality.<br />
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i drink occasionally to forget what a crappy week i'd have.  and lately i've been having some really crappy weeks.  obviously, i can't simply have a beer when i go to work because my asian-ness would be an automatic giveaway for my stupor.  however, i can imagine doing something that would not outwardly giveaway my intoxicated state and yet still allow me to escape reality for a small period.  <br />
<br />
unfortunately, this is not a true solution to the problem.  the problem lies in the work environment and how shitty it is.  the world isn't  pretty so  people turn to alternative realities to paint a better picture, or mentally escape from the ugliness around them.  there's no such thing as a fast forward button on our lives to make a week or day pass by faster.  instead, we have to endure second-by-second each excruciating moment in an unbearable environment just so we can survive.<br />
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i kinda feel bad that my father had to go to this level, but i at least somewhat understood why he turned to them. ]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 07 Jul 2007 22:33:39 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Say The Word</title>
<link>http://www.keithwatanabe.net/blogs/2007/7/12/9df2e1cba4f5a1f89b618abd31df0188.html</link>
<description><![CDATA[Namie Amuro song.  Death to the infindels!]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 12 Jul 2007 08:29:49 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Meltzer's Rant (Again) Against the Industry</title>
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<description><![CDATA[Meltzer had a very interesting write up today on the issue of Benoit's death.  He made some interesting points on how to fix it up.  But there was one particular part that got me:<br />
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&quot;Wrestling should be a great industry. It should put smiles on faces. Hell, 80% of the time I've watched Fit Finlay wrestle this past year has been fun. And to me, who may know the industry a little better, by and large, my opinion is it is filled with sheep, cowards and people who in the end are so afraid of what they deep down know is the truth that they will not-so-gladly sacrifice families. In the end, they are avoiding what they think they are doing, which is actually protecting their business.&quot;<br />
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I don't think Meltzer ever had a &quot;real&quot; job where you go to a place on a daily basis, have some crabby manager and a bunch of top level execs whose only interest is the bottom line.  I think he ends up oversimplifying how people <strong><em>ought</em></strong> to be in the industry because he only really studies a single industry.  <br />
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It's so easy to say &quot;rally the troops!  We're going to go to war against McMahon!&quot;  But the truth is that you don't bite the hand that feeds you.  This pretty much applies to any industry and life.  One reason why wrestlers try to keep their personal lives private is because you end up exposing things like Benoit's secrets when the shit hits the fan.  The end product of wrestling is what you see on TV/the ring when you buy a ticket for a show.  That's where our judgment lies.<br />
<br />
How the business performs and manages sustainability are totally irrelevant to a degree in my opinion.....at least from a realistic point of view.  That means, as a business, it will attempt to do whatever to maximize it's profits.  It's that simple.<br />
<br />
I've worked in about 10 different companies and several different industries, coming to the realization that businesses in the end have only one goal: money.  The employees are irrelevant, the people buying the products are irrelevant, even the product itself can be irrelevant so long as people are stupid enough to continue purchasing the product.  If people stop purchasing the product, that implies the business is stupid and needs to tune its operations and product line to once again manipulate people into thinking that it has a service or good that is needed.<br />
<br />
Sounds simple?  This is just basic business for people who have never held a real job and understand what it means.<br />
<br />
That said, the people who work for a company, besides the owners and shareholders, are nothing but pawns that help tune the business.  They are irrelevant and can be replaced easily.  With that mentality in mind, any employee must do what it takes to preserve their position in a company so long as they wish to keep it.<br />
<br />
Now things are more interesting because at this point we have multiple competing agendas.<br />
<br />
I work in the finance industry at the moment (annuities) and I'm certain my readers (the few that exist) can enumerate the times I've ranted about how unethical my company is.  It's not just my company either but most of the corporate mentality.  Do you think that it's really ethical that a company tries to get some dumb, fragile, old person to give up about $20000 in promising them that 5 years later, their return will increase only by 1.5%?  Well, that's what my industry does.  If you think the product stinks just on those lines, you should enter my office.  Here's one of our HR policies:<br />
<br />
- Must give notice at least 1 month ahead with the consensus of the manager.<br />
<br />
HUH!!??!!?!?!<br />
<br />
You're telling me that another person has the CHOICE to decide upon MY life?  My career?  I'm just a silly programmer working for a company that started only 6 years ago.  Why the hell would such a policy need to be imposed on me?<br />
<br />
How about the 53 hours that I pulled in one week only to be reprimanded by my project manager that I wasn't being a team player?  Or the fact that my manager won't let me take a three week vacation despite the fact that I'm already owed around 18 days of holidays?  Or the fact that some people in my company are protecting a vender rather than their employees for the job?  Or that the project should be delayed so that we can properly finish things?  <br />
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This is business Meltzer.  No one gives a crap about employees.  The only employees that get to have any say are the senior management.  That's just how it is.<br />
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Business is ugly.  That's why it's business and people are &quot;professionals.&quot;  If people were just &quot;people&quot; working for some place, we could talk back against our bosses, go home whenever we feel like it, delay projects against upper management's wishes, etc. businesses wouldn't last long.  I doubt the WWE's roster and company could be sustained with the whole lesser road schedule, lack of pain prescriptions, having bloated people on stage, etc.  You're asking for a pipe dream.  Do you want  to go back to the era where people spent 10 minutes in a headlock?  Or the 2 minute squash matches that just showcased some goon doing their five moves?  Another competitor would come up, armed with the knowledge of what fans demand now, and provide that level of excitement that the WWE was missing in the 80's.<br />
<br />
I'm all for wrestling cleaning up with less deaths (Benoit and Eddie impacted me hard).  But to say that the industry is going to be this idealistic thing is just silly.  I bet if you walk into any famous people's homes that one idolizes, you could easily dig up bad shit on them.  You probably wouldn't want to either because the minute you do, you'll stop idolizing them and their career is dead.<br />
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If you want to change things, talk about changing and regulating corporations as a whole.  Change society.  Social engineering.  Make it so that people can rise up against organizations and not be cowards and give more rights to employees in general.  I don't see wrestlers as special except that they can do a few physical things I'll never be able to do.  But as employees, they are not different than me.  Why treat them as anything special unless I can receive similar benefits?  My life isn't so glorious.  I don't get to see the world.  I don't get this huge paycheck, my name in magazines, a ton of girls and invitations to parties with special celebrities. I work equally hard in sacrificing myself just to get a shit benefits package at the end of the day.  My employer abuses me too, making me work long hours, no recognition, no bonus, constants threats, a low moral work environment.  What makes a wrestler so goddamn special that they ought to get the lifetime million bucks package?  Why can't I get the same thing?  Hey, my dad is in a fucking nursing home.  Did his company provide him with anything?  Did the government?  No, he was just a shit employee that the company canned because they thought he was old and useless.  So these goddamn wrestlers think they deserve all this continual star treatment when they retire.  Get a fucking IRA and save your money or buy some annuities rather than snorting your life away.  I don't see why I should feel any ounce of pity for the choices they make if they go down the wrong path and suddenly end up in the grave.  They have millions of fans who love them. My poor dad doesn't even get one visitor and he's probably done more than these self pitying shitbags.  You sold your soul to the devil (McMahons) and you wanted the glory.  This is how the business is, this is what the fans want, this is what you get.  Don't glorify it, don't expect more.  If you do want more, save your coins, invest in your own company or cause and promote it heavily.<br />
<br />
And if you want sympathy from me, you do something directly for my dad like fix his paralysis, get him a nursing home close to my home, or make me famous and rich so that I can help my family.  I know most of you don't give a shit about anything outside of the range of what goes in your arm or nose in reality, so don't expect respect from me when you're old and crippled and whining about how an industry should still give you money and glory for your service.  That's life, get used to it.<br />
<br />
And Meltzer should get a real job rather than leeching off of others.  That way, he understands the pain of being an employee and why us &quot;cowards&quot; can't do a lot.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sat, 14 Jul 2007 21:58:53 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Advocating Elimination of the 5 Day Work Week
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<description><![CDATA[I've never quite understood the idea of the &quot;5 day&quot; work week (I probably should look up the origins on wikipedia).  These days to me it's a formula for mental and physical burnout.  I've seen people on 6 day work weeks and I can't believe they're still alive (if we talk about office jobs).  But I find the 5 day work week to be offensive and unnecessary.  It's physically and mentally offensive in that you easily can burn out from your job.  People are engrained into the system from an early stage only to continue throughout most of their adult life.  One's body and mind can easily break down from the wear and tear.<br />
<br />
So why continue?  I see this as something that might progress a part of society but isn't overly useful.  Some may argue that removing one day would hurt  global productivity.  I thought it might improve things.  Let's see:<br />
<br />
- Reduce mental and physical fatigue, ensuring that people's attendance will improve<br />
- Improve morale as people would have that extra day to do other personal business<br />
- Possibly allow for companies to increase their workforce by attempting to fill in the gaps that a person on  leave takes<br />
- Change the mentality of companies from simple 9-5 shops to 24/7 support spots (this applies to large organizations that can afford such a thing)<br />
- Doubling the knowledge of an organization by providing duplicate representatives on key areas.  That is, to fill in for the extra day (or three if we want to change things), we could use one day as a knowledge transfer day between the counterparts in order to proceed with certain tasks<br />
- Improve the support models for companies in all areas<br />
- Increase the job market and usher in a new era of competitiveness<br />
<br />
One concern that might come up is pay.  How can a company compensate for this situation for individuals?  Also, would a person in this loop be deducted from pay, thus reducing their ability to afford things?  My response to this is the following:<br />
<br />
- Companies can reduce the overall wages of people on such a program, but should receive some for of tax reduction initially to compensate from the government (there are more jobs, thus more taxes that a company will payout, so the government ought to provide some help there).<br />
- There needs to be a kind of deflation for affordability.  Things like cars, rent, etc. ought to be reduced.  I can see huge problems in places like California.  But these are the places that also require this type of system since the commuting and type of work tend to be more intense.<br />
<br />
At any rate, I think society has progressed to the point where we need a new system of employment to help in improving the quality of life for people.]]></description>
<pubDate>Sun, 15 Jul 2007 00:50:25 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>eBusiness Project + NII + Me</title>
<link>http://www.keithwatanabe.net/blogs/2007/7/17/8021fd3619587fa338cc1cb9d941bd07.html</link>
<description><![CDATA[yet again Scott Adams captures my life in his art]]></description>
<pubDate>Tue, 17 Jul 2007 04:20:12 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>since Connecticut</title>
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<description><![CDATA[oh god this is so god awfully true.  i gained so much weight since coming back from Connecticut.  most of it has been due to stress, no time, eating bad because i'm stressed.  it's so sad.  i think it's time to do something else besides development....]]></description>
<pubDate>Thu, 19 Jul 2007 09:52:31 -0600</pubDate>
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<title>Women as Project Managers</title>
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<description><![CDATA[I've worked with guys and women as project managers.  Perhaps, because I'm a guy I tend to find working with women easier.  But the male project managers I've worked with tend to be harder, less empathetic.  My current PM on the project is just a grinder; he merely checks on tasks, but spends little time on details nor the effort put forth by the members of the team.  My feeling is that he only cares about his own glory and visibility.  The female projects were better at the communication aspects though.  Although they tend not to be as detail oriented in terms of the technical aspect, the critical aspect was being understanding towards the members of the team.  Keeping good morale for a project and especially the members perhaps is more important than the tasks at times.]]></description>
<pubDate>Fri, 20 Jul 2007 22:00