Keith Watanabe * NET 2.0

i trust no one. is that surprising, my readers, considering what i often say? so the recent thing of a friend (or two) revealing my come back to Japan. that sincerely upset me. why? it's because of trust. i dislike flakiness. i dislike people who tend to forget their promises towards me. but that's everyone. everyone lacks the ability to solidly resolve everything they promise. which is why one should never promise, or at least minimize what they can offer. still though i detect more manipulation at the upcoming job. yes, before i step in the door, i sense me being a pawn once again in another power struggle. i don't consider myself great by any means, but the fact that people are seemingly depending on me for their schemas is deeply disturbing. but what's good is that i recognize this. and what's better is that i have my own objectives: i focus on me. that along with a true sense of self-humility will be my saving grace. remember your roots and know what your ultimate goals are. just a warning. don't think for a second that i'm your pawn. when the bazooka turns the other direction, it's ready to fire without a consciousness. i'm glad i recognize what we are: just animals. consciousness is deception. guilt is deception. all social constructs of a super structure. remove the totality and you're left with the base of whom we are. remember that because we are not so great that our twisted value system are above anything nor truly meaningful.